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Hi, I’m Vimal Kumar, and for 21 years, I truly believed Jesus Christ was my saviour.

I wasn’t born into the Christian faith. I come from a Hindu background. But at 18, something stirred in me, a deep conviction that I was a sinner in need of redemption. The Christian message felt powerful, comforting, and true. I gave my heart and life completely to Jesus. My brother and I were the only ones in our family who converted. That decision defined my path for the next two decades.

I married a woman who also came from a Hindu background but found faith in Christ. Together, we built a Christian home, raised two beautiful daughters, and lived a life centered around prayer, church, and service. We weren’t perfect, but our faith was sincere. Life brought its struggles, like it does for everyone but we always believed God was with us.

But faith is a fragile thing when it’s never allowed to be questioned.

What started as small doubts questions I had pushed aside for years — eventually grew louder. I began studying how the Bible came to be. The more I read, the more the ground beneath my belief began to shift. I learned that the New Testament wasn’t written by the people whose names appear on the Gospels. I found contradictions, historical inaccuracies, and stories that simply didn’t hold up under scrutiny. It broke me.

I remember the day I told my wife I no longer believed. It was one of the hardest moments of my life. She was heartbroken. So was I. I had built my entire identity around this faith — and now I was letting it go, not out of rebellion, but out of painful honesty.

Over time, we found a new rhythm. She understood. And we chose love, understanding, and truth over dogma.

This blog is not an attempt to attack anyone’s belief. It’s a space for honesty — a place where I process the journey I’ve walked, and share what I’ve learned. My goal is not to destroy faith, but to speak to those who, like me, are searching for something real, even if it’s uncomfortable.

If you’re questioning, deconstructing, or simply need a place where doubt isn’t a sin — you’re not alone. I’m walking that road too!